She looked down at her phone as it rang,
Tuesdays Gone and looks at the name on the screen.
She looks around the room thinking this is some kind of prank
How could someone possibly be that mean?

She answers the call and turns ghostly white
almost falling out of her seat.
The voice on the other end is the one she remembers
saying stay right there, “I’m just down the street”

Her heart hammers as the line disconnects
there is no way that this can be.
She eyes all the windows with concern
as she sets down her blackberry.

How could this be?
She didn’t understand.
She watched them close the casket,
after she kissed her cold pale hand.

She weeped beside the graveside
as they carried her casket through the rain                                                   She remembered the first shovel of dirt,
and she remembered all the pain

All those feelings vanished instantly
as soon as her best friend appears
Maybe the funeral was not real
rather just a crazy nightmare

Her friend looks at her and hugs her
and whispers clear as day,
“Just because I am gone now,
doesn’t mean that I am far away”

I open my eyes, I can barely breathe
I know that this was just a dream.
I’m reminded that she is really gone
and my heart rips again at the seams.

The nightmare was real. She is really gone
I think about what she had just said.
I cry a few tears because I miss her so much
and turn and go back to bed.

Patana 

Strings attached,
like they always have been.
Wound tighter around me
than a violin.

Strings attached,
like those on a kite
You use to get me so high off the ground.
I’m no longer scared of the heights.

Strings attached,
like your old fishing rod.
You use to reel my heart in like
it was some kind of Cod.

Strings attached,
I was walking on them like a tight wire rope
Clinging tightly to these strings
like tiny threads of hope. 

Strings attached,
that made me feel I was being strung along.
I felt it was time to cut these strings completely
and weave something a little more strong.


PATANA

Turn The Key And Come With Me
Lets Go To Places We’ve Never Seen
Down The Backroads With The Music Blasting Loud.
No Words Between Us Just Musical Sounds.

You’ve Got The Windows Down.
Our Hair Is Blowing Wild.
I Looked At You And You Looked At Me
No Words Between Us. Just Two Smiles

We Drive And Drive With No Where To Go
We Twist And Turn And Learn This New Road
No Maps Showing Us Which Way We Should Go
No Words Between Us. Just Love That Grows.

It Starts To Rain And Then It Pours
The Wipers Come On And Join The Tunes
No Words Between Us. Just A Rainy Afternoon.

We Rain Clears Up
We Find A Little Place
No Lights Are Shining just The Moon
No Words Between Us
Just The Sun Coming Up Soon

PATANA

Within 3 feet,
she looses all her words.
They fly out the window
like a pack of free birds.

Within 3 feet,
she starts to fidget and twiddle.
She starts feeling uncomfortable,
and wishes for someone to be in the middle.

Within 3 feet,
her heart races out of her chest.
She can’t find a place in the world
to put her shaky hands at rest.

Within 3 feet,
her face gets really hot.
This feeling is coming back,
the one she almost forgot.

Within 3 feet,
she is quietly loosing her mind.
She’d can’t help but wonder
if he is just as nervous inside.

Within 3 feet,
she tries not to look over at him.
She stares down at her rockstar can,
running her fingers around the rim.

Within 3 feet,
he still has her by the heart.
She is as nervous as she was on their first date.
It’s been ten years, that’s the not-so funny part.

PATANA

The 20th is getting closer and closer.
This day is certainly gonna blow.
I try not to think about it,
but I guess my heart just knows.

My heart doesn’t want to
get use to the fact,
that you are gone away
and you aren’t coming back

It’s been a year on Friday
and I still wonder why.
God would have taken away
such an awesome guy.

I wish I had more time with you,
time to make more memories and laugh.
It just seems to me you were cheated
when I add up all the math.

28 years just didn’t seem enough
you were just starting out your life
I remember the night you called me excited,
nervous about asking Kim to be your wife.

It’s not fair at all
how quickly you were ripped from all our lives.
Still when I think about it,
It feels like my heart is full of knives.

I know you are up there watching over us
but it’s just not the same.
The only time I get to see you is in memories and dreams
or walking by old pictures in a frame.

Maybe on Friday
you will give us all a sign
a wink or a nod, anything
to let us know that you are fine.

Patana

If the one that got away
ever found his way back,
I’d give everything I have
to keep us on the right track.

I wouldn’t give up on us
like the times I had before.
Second chances are rare,
and this one wouldn’t go ignored.

Our past would be the past
I’d leave it lying at the door.
There would be no more one ups,
and no more keeping score.

He’d never have to wonder
how much he means to me.
Everyone in the world,
even Ray Charles could probably see.

There wouldn’t be anymore games.
I’ve had some time to grow.
I’ve had time to think it over.
He is the only one I want, I now know.

This time I’ve spent alone
has made it all so clear.
I’ve learned to stop pushing away
the ones I love over the past few years.

So if the one that got away
ever came back around here,
I’d give him all I have to give,
and pray he’d never again disappear

Patana